Positive Vibe/ prayer request thread

[naturalooks15]

Hi All,

Don't want this to be whining or venting thread but this is pretty much the only community I am active in and really really like it so thought of posting here. 

This is for everyone to post if you like/need.

Some of you may know that I have been though toughest time of my life for last one year and every aspect of my life is hit. Looks like the ordeal is not over and now it's onto my career and in turn mental wellbeing . Without going into too much detail, my health was compromised to the point that it was life threatening, my personal life crisis beyond belief that I never thought would happen to me and crushed me. Now my career is taking a hit for various reasons plus my health/ some physical limitation causing me further stress, anxiety, having hard time concentrating.

I am doing everything I can. Fighting this very hard, trying to stay positive. I have started working out regularly because I think that will help physical as well as mental wellbeing and doing everything I can but I feel I am at a point where it's getting tiring I can use some positive thought and your prayers. 

Also, if you are someone like me where sometime I am at a loss of words and not sure what to communicate to the person but I still pray for them, that is ok too, no need to feel pressured to post anything.

Feel free to post your own requests in this thread. Again, not a pity party and definitely do everything in your control to power though but sometimes positive vibes and prayers are just the things we all could use. 

[sprocketta]

Thank you @Brutalitops your words help a lot. I definitely need to stick to the accountability thread more. I make more money at this job but my health expenses have been through the roof lately. I was spending $800/month on Cobra insurance while waiting to get on my new insurance. The new job has been a godsend (not really, I'm an atheist). It's mostly great, though my anxiety over work stress has been higher. Sadly the tow was a private company so no luck there. But i should be getting past a few expenses that will allow me to start saving.

Thank you for your support, it helps a lot.

[Brutalitops]

@sprocketta Oof, I work a second job for just extra money, not even money I need to live on and I still would have a VERY difficult time finding an extra $800 in my budget, that's rough. I'm glad that's going to get easier for you. The job stress will probably get better with time, maybe not the same level as the last job but more comfortable. I finished my training program with a different department and went into my "real" position and the new environment and new people, responsibilities has definitely been anxiety inducing for the last couple weeks- it's like starting over all over again.

You're almost at the light at the end of the tunnel! Keep it up!

[prettyinpa]

@sprocketta-  I hope things are getting better for you now. Sending positive vibes you way!

[Samtian]

@sprocketta I'm so sorry to hear this! I hope things get better soon. I've dealt with the impulsive shopping issue...guess who is still trying to pay off those credit card bills 6 years later? I live paycheck to paycheck (well not really haha more like paycheck to two days after) so I know the struggle of spending money you don't have. One thing that has helped me is to find something to distract my attention or have an "end goal". I had a list of small things I'd like to get, and each check if I can I will order maybe one or two things and save money for other things, like trips. It does get hard, but I look at all the things I own and shop the stash and those little things add up and help. Hope things get better soon!

[lmaster]

@sprocketta I'm so sorry! definitely sending you some love and positivity

[sprocketta]

Thanks @lmaster Still not feeling 100% but a bit better.

[joragroy]

@sprocketta I am so sorry you are going through this flare up, but I am very proud of you for recognizing that something was wrong and reaching out for help. I know it can be uncomfortable sharing personal things online. You sharing your experience has really helped me feel like I'm not alone. You have inspired me to be more willing to ask for support, when I'm in need. I haven't been able to read through the replies yet, but I am keeping you in my thoughts and hoping that you are doing okay. I may not always know what to say to help someone feel better, however you have my support. I really admire you and your makeup advice and I'm deeply sorry that you are suffering. You are not alone. Thank you for all you do for the BIC.

[sprocketta]

@joragroy I'm going to PM you.

[howconnie]

I feel your pain and have the same struggle. Ask your governor to forgive the ticket I had to do that. Get a letter from your doctor and ask your politician representative to assist you. Also you could go talk to your police chief, that didn’t work for me cause I’m black and police are hostile to police but it Works for my white friends.

I find that group therapy works better for compulsive behaviors for me. God bless you. You are bravely working to improve be encouraged. Jesus loves you.

[Titian06]

@sprocketta - I'm so sorry you are suffering!  On the other hand, I am very proud of you for asking for support!  I understand what you are going through.  I suffer from anxiety and panic attacks and severe depression--I am Bipolar II.  I'm on two antidepressants and a mood stabilizer.  I stopped taking the benzo a number of years ago because I was afraid of becoming addicted (my grandfather was an alcoholic).  I'm not taking anything right now for the anxiety, so I can get pretty messed up.  You're definitely in my thoughts, and I'm sending tons of virtual hugs your way!!!  No need to go through this alone!

[PenelopeBT]

Sending you healing, positive and calming vibes! <333

[Weetart]

@sprocketta Oof rough, hate getting my car towed. I also will binge purchase when I’m having mental health problems. More than once I have put myself in debt searching for relief from anxiety, stress, depression, most stemming from ocd and ptsd (because one health problem is too boring alone! jk lol) The rush of getting something pretty and fun is hard to resist. Basically, I totally get it. 

I find support systems vital, like BIC or other online communities (I like playing mmorpg’s), but the only thing that eases my more disabling symptoms, like hyper vigilance and moderate depressive episodes, is training in Krav Maga. Training in martial arts or self defense type courses provide me with an incredible sense of self confidence to deal with the day to day. It’s not just the exercise, but feeling powerful and strong and developing skills you never thought you’d have.

[Sunnysmom]

Hugs @Weetart ! Thinking of you  🤗🥰💞

[sprocketta]

Thanks @Weetart It's amazing how much people share the struggles we feel are personal and unique to us.  It's nice to hear you deal with the shopping issue as well.  I mean, I know a lot of us do on these boards, but not sure it's mental illness related for all of us.  I put myself in some credit card debt with purchases of this sort while ill as well.  I mostly use my debit card now and avoid credit cards.

I never thought about that kind of training.  I appreciate that perspective.  I'm glad it works for you.  One of the things that really helps me is taking my dog for a walk by the lake.  I live a block and a half away from a park next to Lake Michigan and walk her there often, but on really tough days it's really helpful.  And giving her attention always makes me happy.

Thank you for your support.  It means a lot to me.

[SportyGirly125]

@sprocketta Sorry you are going through this and hope everything works out in the end.  Sending you positive vibes.

[sprocketta]

Thanks @SportyGirly125 It always works out in the end when I feel better.  Getting support from people like you while I'm struggling is very helpful.  Thank you.

[SportyGirly125]

@sprocketta anytime. We are always here for you. 

[WinglessOne]

@sprocketta  Sounds like my mental illness is different from yours, but I still feel for you big time. Let me know if there’s anything I can do. You have my number. ❤️ And I hope a med change helps you! 

My illness has been through the roof most of this year, to the point where I’m finally forcing myself to get a rescue med. (I’ve been stupidly stubborn about it.) But here’s a fun little story: earlier this year I was refilling my little salt container when I accidentally spilled and dropped it and my big box of kosher salt on my kitchen floor. Salt was all over the floor. I immediately had an anxiety meltdown: slumped to the floor, uncontrollable crying, shaking, “I ruin everything, let’s review the last 40 years of terrible things I’ve done” mental spiral, the works. At some point in my anxiety attack, I looked at the mess around me and thought “help, I’ve been a-salted!” And then suddenly it was all fine. Sometimes, super corny jokes really can save the day. 😂 Or at least help snap folks out of a mental flare/attack. 

[Sunnysmom]

Aww man @WinglessOne I’m so sorry you feel this also 😢. You are always such a bright light on here I just love you! Good humor does help also! I was born in Chicago and grew up in Ill.  Love and miss it!! Hugs for all you guys suffering with this. I get anxiety and it can be the worst. Tho it doesn’t feel like it at least it can’t last forever. :(. At least what I try to tell myself. XX my fellow bright lip- loving friend! 🥰😘🤗

[WinglessOne]

Aw, thank you so much @Sunnysmom ! ☺️ ❤️ We should count you as an honorary Chicago BIC member. 🙂 

I want to say “it’s good to know other folks deal with mental illnesses,” but that doesn’t sound right—I mean it’s not good that others have this stuff. It’s just good to know I’m not alone in this, and I hope Sprocketta and others feel the same. There used to be such incredible stigma and taboo around mental illness; it wasn’t something you discussed, partly for fear of being called weak (pretty damaging when your brain already calls you weak on a regular basis) or treated like a “nutcase” or ostracized, or worse. Mental illness is still stigmatized, but the more everyone talks about it the same way they’d talk about various physical illness, the better for everyone. So I appreciate folks bringing it up and being open about it. 🙂 

[Sunnysmom]

I love that idea @WinglessOne ! Always is home to me! You are right too- I think it’s so much better in how people are talking about and dealing with mental illness now. Much healthier! We all have something to deal with too I’m sure and can help and support each other. Big gentle hugs to all you guys. 💞