Please do not take this as any kind of insult, but I can't help but wonder if you have ever reached out to a mental health professional for help. I have suffered from chronic major depression my entire life, and one of the ways it manifested before I got treatment was a period of obsessive hair picking. For me it was my eyelashes, and only the top lashes, where I wear mascara. My top eyelids were completely bald for a couple of years. This was before I got medical help, during an extremely hard time of my life that led eventually to a suicide attempt I barely survived. I'm not diagnosing you, I just want to point out that this kind of obsessive self-mutilation can sometimes be a symptom of very real and dangerous health problems as well as a problem in itself. And if even a tiny part of you thinks this might be true for you, I am begging you to reach out for help sooner rather than later. The danger is real and absolutely no one deserves to suffer from mental illness, it is torture. If this doesn't sound like you at all, I still have some advice. For one thing, my advice to pretty much everyone is to NEVER own a magnifying mirror, especially not a lighted one! Nobody needs to see that. Perfectly healthy normal gorgeous skin can look weird under extreme scrutiny and feed an obsession. If you have such a mirror, throw it out. You can obsess just fine in a regular mirror, why tempt your inner demons? Also, understand your temptations, know that mirrors aren't your friends right now, walk around them. I have one mirror in my bathroom and a full-length one in my bedroom just to check my outfit. All those small mirrors you have around the house have to go. If you have a mirror hanging in front of your desk, get it off the wall and out. Remove as much temptation as possible. This really does help. Unfortunately, I got over pulling my lashes by developing a self-destructive drug habit instead, but I also used drugs to get my attention away from my lashes and onto something else. Sudoku puzzles, crossword puzzles, knitting or crocheting, drawing, adult coloring books, almost anything to keep your hands busy will help channel the fidgety energy away from your face. That stress is real and needs to go somewhere else. Even if you don't feel like you have a mental illness, mental health counselors are great for teaching you relaxation techniques. Meditation, positive visualization, progressive relaxation, breathing exercises, there are lots of techniques to wind down your stress and something will work for you. But while you are learning that, simply picking up something else to do when you feel the urge to pick will help you stop the cycle of picking and scarring. Even the word association is easy--when you want to pick, pick something UP instead. Keep your hands busy and have something pretty to show for it, it's good for your soul and will take attention off your appearance and onto your abilities. As for products to help erase past sins, people have had success with everything from rosehip oil to complex acid routines to microneedling. It depends on your age, your healing ability, and your budget. Severe damage may require laser treatments, but that's actually pretty rare. I have seen people make scars completely disappear in one bottle of rosehip oil. You have tons of options.