Getting Personal

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I just wanted to tell you guys how much you help me out.  I suffer from EXTREME Depressive Disorder. I'm actually on Disability for it even though I was able to get a Degree with a Concentration and 2 Minors at NCState and work till I was 30.  This board has helped me to interact with other people instead of going into myself. It''s gotten me to get up, get dressed, AND put makeup on , and laugh (really hard).  I even got to do something for someone else with TSB and went out to the Post Office twice that day (my parents were in shock I think  So I just wanted to thank you so much for just being apart of this board because if you wern't on it, it wouldn't be the same!

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Tenngal: I just read your post and I am so sorry to hear about your pain and that **bleep** depression it has caused.  I don't even know what to say. I can''t relate. The worst pain I've ever had was a car accident and my migraines which I don't  think compare.  Jeez, I really wish there was anything I could do to help you. As you said if you ever want to pm me feel free. You know I CAN relate to the depression.  Don't let that take you too far. It can be very dangerous.  As I said to mermade, my spiritual beliefs are a little different, but, I will pray for you.

Please take good care of yourself.

Kati

PS I'll also send good vibes your way.

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@katimae:  Thank you so much.  I can use all the good vibes I can get right now.  You are so sweet!  By the way, I hope you are feeling better now. 

[#4]

@katimae: I'm glad you have a great support system and that you are starting to feel better! BTW, I sent out the TSB to you yesterday, so you should have it by tomorrow!!!!! That should help, I hope!

@ tenngal: I am so sorry to hear that you've been in so much pain.   I've heard that the scraping the shoulder out thing can be painful at first, but that over time it helps. I am trusting that it will help in your case!!!

I'll be sending angels and positive thoughts to both of you gals!!!!

For myself I've been very up and down. My hubby and I are talking about getting pregnant again and it makes me very, very nervous becasue of our repeat scary miscarriages and losing the baby at 6 months last year. I want it so badly, but I also don't want to be a nervous wreck waiting for the other shoe to drop! Thanks for listening! ( or reading!).

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@mermadelove:  First of all, thank you for sending angels and positive thoughts my way!   I also wanted to let you know that I am sending angels and positive thoughts to you and your husband during this difficult time of trying to decide about becoming pregnant again.

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Mermade:  Thanks so much.  And you are part of that support system!  I can only image what you must be going through trying to make the decision of whether to go through and then actually going through another pregnancy. I have very different spiritual beliefs than most people, but what I do believe is that you should pray on it and your higher power (whom I chose to call God) will show you the answer.  I will pray for you to find the right answer.  I never had any children and I regret that, it was mostly because of my mental illness.  It makes me sad but it just wasn't in the plan and I had two beautiful step-daughters for 6 years that I raised.  Didn't have deal with diapers or the angst of the teenage years.  LOL

Have a great day everyone!

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katimae wrote:

  I will pray for you to find the right answer.  I never had any children and I regret that, it was mostly because of my mental illness.  It makes me sad but it just wasn't in the plan and I had two beautiful step-daughters for 6 years that I raised.  Didn't have deal with diapers or the angst of the teenage years.  LOL

Have a great day everyone!

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I'm laughing about the part where you said you didn't have to deal with the teenaged years! I change diapers every workday! And Iget to play and care for babies. If it comes to pass tht we can't have or adopt any of our own, I will appreciate that I will get all of the perks with none of the heartaches of having my own!
xoxoxoxox

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My thoughts are with you too, Mermadelove!  The decision to have or not have children is always a big one, and way more so for you. I hope that everything turns out well for you both. (Love the part about how you get to play with babies but get your sleep!)

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@katimae-  Sorry to hear you are feeling poorly, but good that you didn't get a headache on top of it all. But something to look forward to, you are next up for TSB3 and it sounds just awesome!

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@katimae:  I'm so sorry to hear how stressful the past few days have been for you.  Since I suffer from depression, anxiety and panic attacks, I can totally relate to how you must have felt for instance when finding the VS bill due all of a sudden.  I hate when that happens and I have to run to the PC and try to get the payment posted before I get a late fee.  And I don't drive much anymore unless I have to because of my anxiety so I can just imagine how you must have felt while being so stressed out and then having a fenderbender!  Thank goodness you were OK and it was not a serious accident!  On the bright side about buying double of everything at the store, at least you won't have to go back to the store for a while--ha, ha!   As  far as your roomie goes, I can't believe that he would smoke in his room when you went to all the trouble of setting up a smoking area for him!  That was really rude!  And on top of that, I can't believe he was eating your food and using your PTR skincare products!  If he doesn't straighten up then I think you have every right to kick him to the curb the next time he does something stupid like that!  Anyway, maybe you should check out Sephora's sale page--that cheers me up sometimes--ha, ha!   Seriously, I hope everything gets better for you quickly.

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I'm sorry to here your day has been tough Try pampering yourself for awhile follow up with a relaxing hobby. I do meditation/yoga and weight training when I have a stressful day like this. Best wishes.

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@ mermadelove & waterbaby1981:  I am so very, very sorry to hear of the loss of your children.  My daughter lost twins on her and her husband's first try at having a child and it was devastating to not only her, but to the whole family.  There's not a whole lot to say to make you feel better except that I just wanted to let you know how very sorry I am that each of you had to go through such a tragedy.  They are in God's hands now along with my little twin grandchildren. 

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katimae, I just now read your post and all the others that posted since (I've had another migraine and have been away from Beauty Talk).  Thanks for sharing your story, katimae.  I, too, suffer from chronic depression and the Beauty Talk community has helped me so much, too.  Being able to help others with makeup and skincare advice and to converse with all the wonderful people here has made me get out of bed everyday and start wearing makeup again.  I would never have guessed that you had depression like me because you are always so upbeat and fun to talk to, so I really appreciate the way you've opened up and paved the way for us all to open up and share the painful parts of our lives that we've kept hidden away.  Thanks so much for sharing, dear.

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@tenngal: sorry to hear you've had another migraine! I had two this week, but I have started taking treximet and that has helped trunctate them tremendously!

I hope you are feeling better and thanks for your love, support and for sharing your story!

xoxox

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@waterbaby1981, I'm very sorry for your loss. I can only imagine how hard that must be. My thoughts are with you.

xoxoxo

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I struggle with depression as well.  I know a lot of people do but it so rarely gets acknowledged about in my circle, much less discussed.  It's wonderful to be able to find a community who can be open and supportive with one another. Katimae and everyone, you're all tremendous.  Let's keep looking for positive and meaningful things in our lives and live to the fullest.

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I'm sorry to hear that, but I feel sad a lot too.  I would like  to share some sad things that turned out to be a blessing.  My mom left my dad in January this year after 27 years of marriage, and me and my brother and sister were appalled.  My sister and brother barely spoke to her since, but my sister needed surgery on cyst on her ovary last week.  Prayer made it happen that they saved both ovaries and she is doing well.  My mom finally reached out to her and helped her with recovery and took off of work to do so.  Then if that wasn't enough stress, my dad got a Golden Retriever puppy who swallowed a wire and needed surgery last Saturday.  We gave him a kiss and prayed for the best and it was getting a lot later than it was supposed to take so we called and the puppy had puked up the wire and didn't need surgery.  Which my mom came with for the day to help with the pup and made my dad happy that she still cares. 

Well one thing I can say is God will help you get through tough times and that taking vitamin A & D and St. John's Wort helps with my emotions.

[#18]

To anyone that's lost a loved one, I suggest reading "Heaven is for Real" by Todd Burpo.  My mom picked it up the other day at the bookstore and it made me cry so much, not only from what happened but the fact that it reaffirms my faith and others that our daughter that passed away is in Heaven with my grandmother and Dan's grandparents waiting for us.  Wow.  My husband read it and it made him tear up too.

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waterbaby1981 wrote:

To anyone that's lost a loved one, I suggest reading "Heaven is for Real" by Todd Burpo.  My mom picked it up the other day at the bookstore and it made me cry so much, not only from what happened but the fact that it reaffirms my faith and others that our daughter that passed away is in Heaven with my grandmother and Dan's grandparents waiting for us.  Wow.  My husband read it and it made him tear up too.

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Thanks for the share!

xoxoxoxox

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[#20]

Glad we can help love. I love forum sites they help me in the same way, I'm diagnosed with Depression as well as Post Traumatic Stress disorder so trust me I know how you feel. Your not alone

[#21]

@vanityprincess:  I'm sorry to know that you have depression, too, dear.  It's a tough thing to deal with and I understand because I live with it every day.  It's great that we can all share so openly like this.  Thanks for sharing...

[#22]

@Katiemae: I just wanted to say Thank You again for having the courage to get personal and share your story. Look at how many people have shared becasue of your courage! I'm so glad we are all sharing oou stories because it helps bring us closer together. I know I held back before this because I though tthat what I wanted to share might be too "heavy" for a "public" forum. Now this place feels ever so much more like home becasue of all of the amazing love and support we all share. I know that everyone has a story, but hearing everyone come forward and share what they have been through or are currently dealing with and knowing how much we help each other with our beauty addiction hobby REALLY makes me feel good about all of the time I've spent in this community.

You ladies are ALL AWESOME!!!

xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxox

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